I haven’t been blogging for a long while as I have been busy finishing my internship in Hong Kong and getting ready to come back to Denmark.
Makeup wise… Of course, one of the hardest parts was to decide what makeup products to throw out, what to send home and what to take with me. Initially, I wanted to bring everything home, but it ended up in a very awkward moment at the airport. I had to go through one after the other eyeliner, lipsticks, blushes…… It was heart breaking for me to put everything “I don’t need” in a bag, and have it sent to me instead of bringing my babies home myself. Regardless, I did it because I refused to pay the overweight fee.
Life wise… Living in Hong Kong for almost 2 years has made me more attached to the city than I thought I would. I have had a really weird feeling the last week – leaving something that has become so familiar – for the so-called home that suddenly seems to strange to me. I didn’t know what to feel when the plane landed, and I saw a white layer of snow over the landscape. Kind of excited to be home, but also at the same time already bored by the grey landscape I have been growing up in. Lately, I have been panicking because I’m not sure where I belong anymore. It seems like there is not really a place that screams home. Asia stands for excitement and Europe stands for settling down. Not that I can’t have excitement in Europe, but the Hong Kong memories are still very fresh in my mind, and Amsterdam will not be before a few weeks. I do look very much forward to that though: new place, new language, new people and one familiar face. I hope that everything works out, and I can start settling down there.
The decisions have to be made… I knew I had overweight with all my makeup, but couldn’t get myself to do it until the lady at the counter told me I had 9 kilos too much, and I had to sit down on the airport floor and pick the products out one by one. For me, leaving Hong Kong is the same feeling – it’s something I think I really want, but is merely a place I can do without. Sometimes, it just hurts to part and let go of something you’re starting to be attached to. But I think it really is healthy to take the plunge once in a while in order to just move on.
I only know my next destination… I was having a chat with my niece yesterday. She has to leave primary school soon and is still deciding which (high) school to choose next. She said it’s because she doesn’t have a certain job or job role to aim for. But then I told her – actually only very few know. I will be graduating my master’s soon – even I don’t know! Regardless, I feel like I have had some very meaningful years at uni because I’ve kept setting short-term goals which have included many stays abroad. I really didn’t know where I was going – I still don’t. But not knowing exactly where to go is actually the exciting part isn’t it?
So my next goals (also a part of my new year resolution) are; Graduation, Amsterdam, a job in IT, take the supplementary IT course – ITIL, learn Dutch. Everything might not work out as I hope. I might end up hating Amsterdam. But I won’t know unless I throw myself out there and try right?
What is your next adventure?
And Happy Chinese New Year!